Failures, Realizations, & Try Again!

I am back again, and giving this another whirl. So let me give you a little update since my last post. I realize it has been quite a few months.

update

After my last post, I went into my 2nd 30 day set of juicing. From my last post you can tell it had been rough, even my fiance noticed I was depressed. So he suggested I have 1 meal a day, I agreed. So, my 2nd 30 day began, I looked forward to the meal. At this point, i was doing fine, until the 2nd week came around. I then, couldn’t help, but snack on something here and there. By the end of the 2nd set of 30 days, I was at more than just one meal/ I didn’t lose as much.

What I did realized though, is that I didn’t lose more than I thought I would in the first month, much less the 2nd month. Basically what I am saying, I went through all that suffering, to have results that didn’t make much of a difference from my normal dieting. I was very disappointed to say the least.

Psychologically, the juicing screwed with my mind, in the sense of being deprived of solid foods. I know I did it willingly, but I wasn’t expecting the psychological trauma. I say trauma, because when those 60 days were done. I couldn’t, just go back to my regular dieting (lifestyle change). Because, it is like someone not having water for days, all they want to do is drink, til they can’t anymore. That is what happened to me.

I ate, just about everything, I had not ate while on my regular diet, I can’t even explain the feeling. I went on like that for about 3-4 months, during that time gaining weight. All the hard work in the previous year, I was knowingly sabotaging, in my mind, I couldn’t control myself. It made me sad, and happy at the same time. I know it is up to me, but until you have been there you don’t know.

I think this is well and good for some people, but not for others, it did not work for me, I think the cleansing was a good thing. And even though I lost a lot of weight the first week, there after it was as low as 2 lbs a week, which was not much in my eyes.

I think I will stick to my regular diet, and walking.

Speaking of walking, I have noticed as of late, I have not been walking as much. Now I can use the excuse that my cay gets behind me near the treadmill, and I have to stop, but I can easily take her to the room for 30-60 minutes without a problem. I need to stick to every aspect of my diet, or I will never reach my goal.

As it is a gained back about half of what I lost. Back to work, never give up! I am not sure if I will post my regular updates like before, if anything, perhaps once a month. So far, I have been back on my diet for 3 weeks, have lost 10.8 lbs, which is awesome, this is pretty much how it goes, I average 2 lbs a week, i weigh in now on Saturdays, but am thinking to changing to Saturdays like I was doing before.

Tonight I had a chat with my boyfriend, and we agreed that I should change it back to Saturdays. SI am going to do that, It just feels weird, nit doing it at the end of the week lol. Ok I have gone on enough, I am closing here.

Final thoughts: If you decide to go on a diet, be sure it is one that you can deal with, physically, physiologically and emotionally!

Until next time.

xoxo
Emily

Day 38! Success in 30 Days!

I am so happy to report that after 30 days (even though today is 38 lol). That I lost 28 lbs juicing! I am so so happy, but oh so very hard. Omgosh. I got to the point of feeling depressed, and I didn’t like that feeling. I read that would pass, but it didn’t so when my next 30 days started, we agreed with my fiance that I would do one meal in the evening with him. So with Valentine’s Day approaching, I wanted to spend that time not worrying too much about what I ate. So we had a nice weekend, had Subway, and then on Valentine’s Day he made an amazing dinner. So, because of that, this week, I am only juicing, to make up for the weekend, and 2 lbs I gained BUT hey I am just glad I am able to juice, and get back on track. But I did lose those 28 lbs so that is something.

I have taken pictures of what I have been juicing, you can see those on my Instagram. I’ll leave a post here so anyone interested, can pop on over and check them out!

I hope that link worked, will have to see after I post. In my last post, I had forgotten I wrote that post lol. And then noticed it and thought I better post this today, but post date back to January, wow I cannot believe how time just flies by. Anyway I did post some pictures from my juice making in the other post, but in this one I have the link (that I hope works) to my Instagram. If anyone is so inclined to follow along my journey.

I have come to realize that I will end up having loose skin, which kind of bums me out, but hey I am 51, and well time has taken it’s toll. If I had started early in life doing what I am doing now, then it would of been a different story. I have been watching Skin Tight.

Skin Tight

A TLC TV show about people from all walks of life, that had gone either weight loss surgery, or like myself, did it through diet and exercise. And the aftermath, so many people are so unhappy, they feel as if they are trapped in the same body they were in before, because of the loose skin. I fear that is what will happen to me. In the TV show they undergo plastic surgery, which I am sure is so very expensive, but that is the only way to get rid of the excess skin that hangs loose. How in the world am I going to pay for something like that. I will feel trapped if I don’t do the surgery. I so wish I had known what I know today. I hope one day someone stumbles on my post, and gets inspired to start before it is too late.

I am such a private person, I cannot post pictures of myself, it is too embarrassing, and I just can’t. Call me a coward, oh well. lol. Anyway with that said, I think I will end it here. I have some catching up to do with that show. I think, once I reach a weight I am happy with, I am going to apply to be on that show. I think it is something I need, and will help me. Because the loose skin will get me depressed, I see it already, and I hid it already.

Until next time.