Weigh-in #18 – Rough Waters

I’m not so happy, trying to lose weight on my own, I know is up to me, and I need to be strict about things. Now what I’m about to tell you, may seem like an ‘excuse’ but I am genuinely being honest about it. Growing up in poverty as a child, you appreciated the food you had to eat, as so many worse off than we were as children can tell you, I am right, anyone with common sense should, are they a lot of those? You be the judge.

Moving on, as I mentioned,growing up we appreciated our food. Now as an adult, in my current relationship. My fiancĂ© mother, makes us dinner sometimes once every two weeks, usually Lasagna with some kind of sausage, italian usually, and also sometimes pasta, VERY VERY delicious but also VERY VERY fattening. I don’t like food to go to waste, I don’t OVER indulge, but my portions have to be small, if I am to stay within my calories for the week. BUT, yeah I know a ‘but’, BUT she makes a lot, and it is only myself and my hunny William. As much as I adore his mother, and whole heartedly appreciate what she makes. I eat some, and because it is a lot, sometimes twice a week, even at lunch. But still trying not to go over my calories.

It is very hard to do that, because the portions are smaller than my meals, I will intentionally skip a mean, to indulge in some of her fine cuisine. I’m beginning to feel, that those times, are one of the reasons I gain. It is 100% my fault, and I should know better. Her family doesn’t know that I am on a diet, his sister might, as I post on Instagram and that goes to my twitter,and that goes to my personal facebook account. So maybe she sees it, and maybe she don’t give a shit LOL. So I don’t know.

If I ask my hunny to tell his mom, no more please, I feel I will be hurting her feelings, and his. So I don’t say much. I probably won’t either. I may just need to let food go to waste, and go bad, because William can eat so much, and he don’t like taking lunch, as it is his time out of the office. So it makes me feel that I am going against everything I believed in, about wasting food. Do you see where I am coming from now? *sigh* I don’t know what to do.

I am not very friendly with my neighbors, everyone seems to stay to themselves and personally I don’t like that. I think it is important to communicate with more than a hand wave or a smile. I wish they were friendlier, because then I would bring them some over. My sister is Las Vegas, wish she was close, because I would take it to them. *sigh* I gained 1.5 lbs, not a happy camper

So as mentioned, I am not trying to make an excuse, just giving some history here. Ok let’s go to the photo now.

Weigh-in #18

Yeah it is a bummer. We’ll see how things go, say a prayer!

Weigh in #3

I know it’s late in the week, and I should of posted over the weekend, and we are almost into the weekend again. But I was not 100% happy with my weigh in, I gained weight, but I’m not really upset with myself, because I know now what it is I did wrong.

Even though I had enough calories for the food I was eating during the week, I over compensated, thinking that I had enough calories and that should be fine. I was WRONG and perhaps a lot of other people do the same thing, and make the same mistake as I did.

I learned that even though for instance say I have a lot of calorie left at the end of the day for dinner, it does not mean ‘hey i can eat more’, it doesn’t work like that, you can be sure you will gain weight. You need to be strict especially at night, to NOT eat a lot, because you are not moving around as much in the evening, so you can’t lose much, unless your a fit freak that immediately does a work out after eating. That is on you, but specifically talking about myself, this is what I discovered.

So really, I am still learning a lot as I am going along my journey to lose weight. I hope my weigh in this coming weekend is better. I have also changed my calorie intake and lowered it, it is now at 1,460 calories a day. This was calculated by MyFitnessPal app, which I am fine with that, I can still eat and not completely be starving, as long as I stay above 1,200, I am good. I think lowering the calorie intake will make me more careful as to what I am eating.

It’s a hard lesson to learn, and I honestly didn’t want to gain anymore weight, but it happens, and it’s all on me, and it’s up to me to do the right thing. If I am ever going to get to my goal. According to the MyFitnessPal app, it states I should lose 2 lbs a week, I don’t know if I will make 2lbs but I am hoping for the minimum of 1 lb.

In my about section, I have a meter that shows my weight progress, I haven’t really did much with the page, but I think I will start putting in how much I lost each week, since I first started posting about my weigh in.

I think that is about it for now. Wish me luck on my journey *fingers crossed* I don’t make the same mistake twice