Failures, Realizations, & Try Again!

I am back again, and giving this another whirl. So let me give you a little update since my last post. I realize it has been quite a few months.

update

After my last post, I went into my 2nd 30 day set of juicing. From my last post you can tell it had been rough, even my fiance noticed I was depressed. So he suggested I have 1 meal a day, I agreed. So, my 2nd 30 day began, I looked forward to the meal. At this point, i was doing fine, until the 2nd week came around. I then, couldn’t help, but snack on something here and there. By the end of the 2nd set of 30 days, I was at more than just one meal/ I didn’t lose as much.

What I did realized though, is that I didn’t lose more than I thought I would in the first month, much less the 2nd month. Basically what I am saying, I went through all that suffering, to have results that didn’t make much of a difference from my normal dieting. I was very disappointed to say the least.

Psychologically, the juicing screwed with my mind, in the sense of being deprived of solid foods. I know I did it willingly, but I wasn’t expecting the psychological trauma. I say trauma, because when those 60 days were done. I couldn’t, just go back to my regular dieting (lifestyle change). Because, it is like someone not having water for days, all they want to do is drink, til they can’t anymore. That is what happened to me.

I ate, just about everything, I had not ate while on my regular diet, I can’t even explain the feeling. I went on like that for about 3-4 months, during that time gaining weight. All the hard work in the previous year, I was knowingly sabotaging, in my mind, I couldn’t control myself. It made me sad, and happy at the same time. I know it is up to me, but until you have been there you don’t know.

I think this is well and good for some people, but not for others, it did not work for me, I think the cleansing was a good thing. And even though I lost a lot of weight the first week, there after it was as low as 2 lbs a week, which was not much in my eyes.

I think I will stick to my regular diet, and walking.

Speaking of walking, I have noticed as of late, I have not been walking as much. Now I can use the excuse that my cay gets behind me near the treadmill, and I have to stop, but I can easily take her to the room for 30-60 minutes without a problem. I need to stick to every aspect of my diet, or I will never reach my goal.

As it is a gained back about half of what I lost. Back to work, never give up! I am not sure if I will post my regular updates like before, if anything, perhaps once a month. So far, I have been back on my diet for 3 weeks, have lost 10.8 lbs, which is awesome, this is pretty much how it goes, I average 2 lbs a week, i weigh in now on Saturdays, but am thinking to changing to Saturdays like I was doing before.

Tonight I had a chat with my boyfriend, and we agreed that I should change it back to Saturdays. SI am going to do that, It just feels weird, nit doing it at the end of the week lol. Ok I have gone on enough, I am closing here.

Final thoughts: If you decide to go on a diet, be sure it is one that you can deal with, physically, physiologically and emotionally!

Until next time.

xoxo
Emily

Slow as a snail! But I don’t Give Up!

I am back. The past 3 months I have had quite a struggle with my weight loss. I am very happy to say I have not gained back the 100 yay!! But the struggle has been harder than I thought. After the 100 lbs loss, losing more has been a yo yo thing. I lose, than I gained. I do blame myself though. I was stricker during my first 100 lb loss. By now I should have lost 24 lbs but I have not. I have only managed 10 lbs, which is still something, but as I mentioned, it has been nothing but a yo yo effect. It has bummed me out, but I thought I will just get as strict as I have when I first started losing weight. Because apparently I gain weight so damn fast!!!

Slow, Don't Give Up

That is not why I have not posted. I just have been super busy, with all the things I have going on in my life. I feel bad because I wanted a good record of my weight loss. I mentioned in my last post, I was going to post pictures, and I still am. Even if they are all in the same post, so I can keep my record of weight loss.

Without fail, I have weighed in every Saturday, took a picture of the scale with my progress. I have those photos, and I plan to post them. I just need a little extra time to do it. I am hoping I can do it before Saturday, because then I will continue my weekly post of my weight in. This is going to be beneficial to me. As it is my record of my life change. If someone reads this, stumbles on it, helps then, that would be amazing.

I am a member of MyFitnessPal, I love that app, I have had a 571 day streak on it, which makes me happy. So if someone does stop by, they can find me there, and also under About, I have a meter that shows my weight loss, you may need to refresh page, as sometimes it appears like the image is not showing up. Welp that is all for now, until the next post!

Don’t give up!